Sunday, August 31, 2008


so there's this one guy who can really put me in a silent mode..  im not shy around guys, i don't mind them (and everybody for that matter).. i mean, they're there and that's it.. but him around, im just different.. i probably tend to make "pa-cute" and i hate just thinking that i probably do that (ew! did you see KC around richard gutierez? that kind of "pa-cute"..yikes!). i refer to him as the "love of my life".. i havent' seen him for ages..
so anyway, he viewed my friendster profile and i couldn't breathe (literally) when i saw his name (see?).. and then i thought of the past and there were questions of the possibility of rekindling it.. but the answer is clear.. he didn't even email me.. so there's my truth.. and life goes on! hahahahahhaha!
im going home tonight!

Saturday, August 30, 2008

The Aftermath

as i was answering the questions on the bulletin board (friendster - yup, i have time! ahahahahha!), I realize that there are still some things left from our relationship after our break-up.. like in my phone,  the speed dial 2 is his number, and his messages are mostly the ones in my saved messages folder.. and then there's the password for friendster, multiply, livejournal, etc., combination of our names (yup, im one of those people - i just don't make it as my username though - my site's mine, not mine and his.. hehe..)..  and then some of his stuff are still in my room.. well, about the stuff, they're mostly "pambahay" shirts and he already gave them to me! hahahahaha! they're big and they're so confortable, i love them!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Coz It Sucks

my life rarely sucks.. and by rarely i mean, REALLY rarely! i have a wonderful family who loves me (being the favorite and all - comes with the package! hahahaha!), really cool and nice friends - i miss most of them (special mention to jayson, karryl, aprol, ibit, bidang, jong, reina, goryo, nona, and delite!), a job that pays my shoe shopping, and a closet and a laundry basket full of fabulous clothes.. what more could a girl want, diba? my bloopers, they may be embarrassing but at the end of the day, they all just make me laugh.. it's fun! it's been fun!

but now, at this very moment, i can say that MY LIFE SUCKS! yup! my relationships are failing.. love, friendship.. they're gone.. and none of you can probably tell - concealer, yup, the greatest invention in the world!

well, although im still thankful that Matty and I are still friends - we're good friends now or at least this afternoon after talking THE talk - i still feel really sorry for him.. and after all the laughter brought about by Steve Ferrell's (or is it Farrell?) movies and our never ending "i-outsmart-you" conversations, i cried.. in the CR! i loved the ambiance! hahahahaha! i didn't know if he noticed but well, he just hugged me and told me that he's ok.. sad, eh? yeah.. another sad ending to my lovestory..

friendship.. i only have a few really good friends and i love them all with all my heart and shoes.. i've invested a lot emotionally to my friendships that when it goes cold it really hurts me.. and now, im hurting.. whatever happened to her?!

and im really hating Jayson right now because everytime he has a problem he can just call me and cry his heart out and now that it's me who's needing him, hay ang bayot d ma-reach ky guba ang fon! it's sooooo unfair! gosh!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Rafa And I

hahahahaa! i decided to put this in my blog instead of in my photos page coz it's bigger kung dani.. after 2 days (in my shift), finally im done! tears and effort ang capital nko ani! hehehe..

*Matty's not jealous but I want him to be - I'm crazy!*