Tuesday, December 23, 2008


honesty, for me, is very important, especially among friends.. it's the reason why i trust..i don't easily open my heart to anybody, you know.. i just don't tell anybody my innermost thoughts and feelings  (yup! there's more to what i've written in here! scary, huh? Ü) - so yeah, obviously when i do, it means that i trust that person..
you see, i've opened my heart to this person, only to discover that all he's been telling and showing me are lies. Pretty bull, huh? I thought he's nice.. i even brag about him being nice! Turns out he's just one of those two-faced jerks! I feel so betrayed, it hurts.. 
so enough of those flattery shit. i don't need it. i don't need you. I DON'T TRUST YOU.
God, this is the worst feeling in the world! HAH! MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Friday, December 19, 2008

After A Great Pain.. WHat's Next?

the weather's gloomy this morning, i decided to go out wearing my brightest green mini dress, my fire red havs, and its matching red watch.. i needed to go out..
so they say that after a BIG heartache you become stronger - you feel like you can bear whatever heartache you'll go through in the future.. hmmm... maybe not in my case.. maybe my first real heartache (JANUARY 23/24, 2007 - the day i cried 24 hrs straight! no joke, no exaj!) made me fear love.. maybe.. my friend told me so, which really got me into thinking the whole day - which sucks coz i've work tonight!
well, you know, the only thing that im sure of right now (aside from realizing that my ex-bf's a jackass and is soooo not worth my time!) is that i've become wiser and honestly, i think im stronger now.. i don't know if what happened then made me afraid though.. maybe..
oh, and about that heartache, well, i thought that he had another woman while we're still together.. 1 year after i broke up with him, his cousin told me that I WAS ACTUALLY THE OTHER WOMAN - i had no clue at all! turns out someone else suffered more pain that i had suffered - maybe that woman hated me.. that bastard! now, we're cool - we're friends, kind of.. i wish him well.. i laugh about it now - well, even then - after i cried! hahaha!
btw, he's that person i wrote my poem "Second Time Around" for.. gosh!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Second Time Around

It seemed like I've waited forever
For the right guy to come my way
Whoever said that life is fair
I've looked for him everywhere

And then you came
Without me expecting it
I couldn't believe it's your voice that i hear
Gosh! It's been what, 4 years?!

Now we're older
Now we're mature
We both know how we feel
I can't believe it's real

Then there's 'us'
Then there's this love that we, again, found
I couldn't believe but I truly feel
That, indeed, love is sweeter the second time around..

written: JANUARY 2007

Friday, November 21, 2008


remember the guy i'm dating? the one i mistakingly send my text message to? well, we just had dinner and..
everything's perfect - the place, the food, me, him.. except that..
i was bored..
i didn't want to eat..
i didn't want to talk..
i could hear him but i didn't want to listen..
i was texting matty and grasya and arnel and osting..
i just couldn't feel the magic anymore.. no sparks.. zero.. nada!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

What Was That All About?

what happened last night?
why did i cry?
why was i hurt?
was i jealous?
why was i bitchy?
was it only PMS???
or was it another side of me i haven't obviously discovered???
there's something wrong with me and i don't know what it is.. Thanks to Matty and Cuerdz for being there and to the men and women at D'che spa for being so nice.. Ü

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

My Friend's Lovelife

thanks to those who read my blog. i know that im not the "professional writer" type and i don't proofread also and my topics aren't at all serious - heck, i just talk about myself most of the time! haha! so now, im going to talk about my friend's lovelife..
so he said he likes someone but that person is immature. he said that he's not going to get involve with someone just for sex, he said he needs a real relationship. everyday, he sees this person and they're really good friends..
so here's what i told him, and i will quote myself coz i advised him through email:
    "do you honestly want me there??? oki rag dili.. i've things to do man sad! (coz we're gonna go somewhere together with that person) hahahaha!! from experience, you can't dictate your heart but you can always pretend and then later, mawala lang dayon na.. so if you like that person, then so be it.. if you want to show it, then go.. but if you don't, then just pretend! hahha!"
i remember highschool.. sometimes, you just can't do anything about a certain situation so instead of showing someone you love him/her, you choose not to, in fear of hurting someone else or of hurting yourself more. im good at it, you know.. i've mastered it.. saves face! hahaha!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

The Hunk Speaks Good English

yeah, so in my shift, usually at around 10am, people in the US are already sleeping, and so we no longer have calls.. and in those idle times, i just stare at my PC, either reading an ebook or surfing the net..

this morning (actually just a few minutes ago), i was in for big surprise.. so i was doing my routine when i heard a bass-tone voice at my back and when i turned, gosh, twas the hunk i see everyday in my neighborhood (sometimes with his gf)!!! he actually goes here???? gosh! he's looking for someone and he asked me and honestly, i can't remember what i said anymore.. hahhaha! but he speaks good English.. that's all.. i was in awe.. haha!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

late, one tree hill, survivor gabon, date, cuerdz

  • so, my day, i mean my night (im on a night shift) started as a BIG disappointment.. i set my alarm @ 7:30 am so yeah, naturally, i was late - i wasn't able to wake up until my SUpervisor called me at 9:36pm.. MAKASAPOT! now, im sarcastic in almost all of my calls - i tried not to but i can't help it. it's unfair, i know..it sucks to me and to them (callers) too!
  • anyway, im now on season 2 of ONE TREE HILL - it's heartwarming.. it's like a no-nonsense version of Gossip Girl. It's addicting, promise! and i learned a lot but for some reasons i can't remember anything anymore.. it sucks.. i swear im gonna write them next time!
  • SURVIVOR GABON - Bob Crowley won!!!! he truly deserves it! hehe..
  • so yeah, ummm.. i've had my share of "funny" (in a "hell-ish" way) dates - and i the guys, not the date itself ----  ummm.. you know what im gonna write about this maybe next month coz it's pretty recent! hahahaha! God, im so glad i trusted my instincts!
  • ang imong video Cuerdz hap! hahaha!

Monday, November 10, 2008


this is super embarrassing.. gosh! just even thinking about it.. oh crap!!!! whatever!!!

So, I'm dating someone right now (someone very smart pod) na-send nako sa iyaha ang text that was meant for one of my friends - and i was talking about him!!!!! Gosh!!!! MABUANG KO! can i die now?????

you know, i just hope na dili nlng xa mu-reply para ma-save ko sa embarrassment! waaaahhhhhh!!!! yikes kaulaw jd!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

The Ex-3 Has A Kid

so, this morning i received an email from him.. he's from a very long time ago but we got back together early 2007 (for a month) and we kind of talked about marriage and stuff and although it wasn't at all serious (you know how "new" lovers make pa-cute and talk about marriage), but still, we had THAT talk. and i just can't help but think that it could've been me and it makes me feel, i don't know, relieved? im just soooo not ready to get married (yet), let alone to have a kid. I fear them both. and, the kid's picture..gosh..it just substantiate my fear.. hehe..
in relation to this, early 2008, i almost got engaged also (hahaha! first time you hear about this, huh? hahaha!) but when he asked me, I flinched and I politely declined and eventually, we broke up. hahahaha! on the early part of our relationship, we also had THAT talk and honestly, i thought i was going to marry him but when he asked, i felt different! haha! i don't know.. d pa lang jd ko ready.. hehe..
anyway, im super happy for him! i think he's going to be a good father..

Thursday, October 2, 2008

First Move

i realize that it's super ok to make the first move - as long as you don't like the guy! hehehe.. see, there's this guy, he's my friend's crush and i was hoping to "know" him better (i personally think he's gay.. sshhhhh...sori..Ü) by adding him as one of my contacts in one of my sites (thanks to my friend for making my other 2 sites! gggrrr!).. of course he knew me! i mean, we bumped into each other a lot of times already (as in literally - clumsy moments nko..Ü) so when he saw me at, well, somewhere (not gonna tell anything), he politely approached me and introduced himself. we shook hands and talked a little and it was nice! it was actually one of the very few first-meeting chitchats i super enjoy in my entire life! so there..
of course, that wouldn't have been the case if i liked him (i literally freeze when around someone i like!) but then, you know if we girls can probably just keep our cool, then ok lang.. maybe we just need to think that we don't like the person we like so that our first moves will be as smooth as that of mine! haha!
but no.. im not gonna be able to do it to someone i really like.. like, NEVER!!! hahaha!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008


what exactly is destiny? for me, it's just like letting things happen.. you know, like you just do what you've always been doing and if something nice or bad happens then that's destiny working. it's something that you don't have control of.
or is it????
i watched My Sassy Girl (American) last weekend and it got me into thinking.. in that movie, the old man said that molding destiny itself is destiny.. is it? do we always need to do something about something? isn't it that if it's meant for you, it's meant for you?

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Not Just A Little Crush

first of all, let me just shout.. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! hahahaha!

so, ok.. whew!

you know, if there's one thing i hate about myself, it's my supernatural ability to just melt whenever i see my crush! hahahahaha! hay nko! after 3 years and some months of working at sykes, i finally found someone - which is good because he honestly makes me happy (yikes!) and which is bad at the same time because, i feel conscious everytime i see him! hahahah! yikes! yesterday, we passed by each other and i felt like there's just me and him and the possibility of me tripping! hahahaha! i hate this! i hate this feeling coz im not like this! i mean, as long as my family and my friends are ok, kiver rajud ko sa world! and now, i look for him everywhere! i always feel like he's just gonna show up or something! gooooossssshhhh! i hate this!!!

Saturday, September 6, 2008

I'm Going To Marry Him!

So, ok.. do you know how a man, when asked about the woman he’s going to marry, he’ll say na he already knew it (that he’s  going to marry her) the first time he met her????

Well, yesterday, I was at SM with one of my closest friends, Julius Benedick Guerra... There was a band – I like them (the girl’s so cool – superb guitar skills, nice sultry voice, nice dress – she’s perfect!)... And then there’s this guy... I saw him from the escalator... Not so tall, lean, nice smile...   Our eyes met... twas like a scene in a movie... And then everything’s blurry na dayon, I could hardly decipher what my friend was saying... All I could hear was the music, “I see trees of green... Red roses too... I see them bloom... for me and you.. ” he’s heading towards us… he sat near us! Gosh! Glances here and there until the band’s done with the set... And then I went home..

Until now, I still can’t forget his face!

I want to marry that man! Hahaha!

Sunday, August 31, 2008


so there's this one guy who can really put me in a silent mode..  im not shy around guys, i don't mind them (and everybody for that matter).. i mean, they're there and that's it.. but him around, im just different.. i probably tend to make "pa-cute" and i hate just thinking that i probably do that (ew! did you see KC around richard gutierez? that kind of "pa-cute"..yikes!). i refer to him as the "love of my life".. i havent' seen him for ages..
so anyway, he viewed my friendster profile and i couldn't breathe (literally) when i saw his name (see?).. and then i thought of the past and there were questions of the possibility of rekindling it.. but the answer is clear.. he didn't even email me.. so there's my truth.. and life goes on! hahahahahhaha!
im going home tonight!

Saturday, August 30, 2008

The Aftermath

as i was answering the questions on the bulletin board (friendster - yup, i have time! ahahahahha!), I realize that there are still some things left from our relationship after our break-up.. like in my phone,  the speed dial 2 is his number, and his messages are mostly the ones in my saved messages folder.. and then there's the password for friendster, multiply, livejournal, etc., combination of our names (yup, im one of those people - i just don't make it as my username though - my site's mine, not mine and his.. hehe..)..  and then some of his stuff are still in my room.. well, about the stuff, they're mostly "pambahay" shirts and he already gave them to me! hahahahaha! they're big and they're so confortable, i love them!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Coz It Sucks

my life rarely sucks.. and by rarely i mean, REALLY rarely! i have a wonderful family who loves me (being the favorite and all - comes with the package! hahahaha!), really cool and nice friends - i miss most of them (special mention to jayson, karryl, aprol, ibit, bidang, jong, reina, goryo, nona, and delite!), a job that pays my shoe shopping, and a closet and a laundry basket full of fabulous clothes.. what more could a girl want, diba? my bloopers, they may be embarrassing but at the end of the day, they all just make me laugh.. it's fun! it's been fun!

but now, at this very moment, i can say that MY LIFE SUCKS! yup! my relationships are failing.. love, friendship.. they're gone.. and none of you can probably tell - concealer, yup, the greatest invention in the world!

well, although im still thankful that Matty and I are still friends - we're good friends now or at least this afternoon after talking THE talk - i still feel really sorry for him.. and after all the laughter brought about by Steve Ferrell's (or is it Farrell?) movies and our never ending "i-outsmart-you" conversations, i cried.. in the CR! i loved the ambiance! hahahahaha! i didn't know if he noticed but well, he just hugged me and told me that he's ok.. sad, eh? yeah.. another sad ending to my lovestory..

friendship.. i only have a few really good friends and i love them all with all my heart and shoes.. i've invested a lot emotionally to my friendships that when it goes cold it really hurts me.. and now, im hurting.. whatever happened to her?!

and im really hating Jayson right now because everytime he has a problem he can just call me and cry his heart out and now that it's me who's needing him, hay ang bayot d ma-reach ky guba ang fon! it's sooooo unfair! gosh!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Rafa And I

hahahahaa! i decided to put this in my blog instead of in my photos page coz it's bigger kung dani.. after 2 days (in my shift), finally im done! tears and effort ang capital nko ani! hehehe..

*Matty's not jealous but I want him to be - I'm crazy!*

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

On The Outside Looking In

This poem's from Sweet Valley High. I found it in one of my diaries years ago.. I remember how it touched me.. hahahaha! yikes! here goes:

Day after day I’m feeling kind of lonely,
Day after day it’s him and him only.
Something in his eyes
Made my hopes start to rise.
But he’s a part of the world that doesn’t include me.
Nothing he says could ever delude me.
I’ll never win.
This is how it’s always been.
I’m on the outside…looking in.
Night after night I’m saying a prayer
Night after night…hat somebody will care!
Somebody to hear me,
Somebody to stay near me…
But nothing’s going to change. Dreams can’t deceive me.
I’m all alone. You’ve got to believe me.
I just can’t win.
This is how it’s always been…
I’m on the outside- on the outside…
Lookin’ in.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Ansi Bariya

ansi bariya, ansi baristo
apagong , amagong, E-GI-GONG
apagong eng sungsunge
amagong eng waysinge
apagong gitangasingawa
utsa,. utsa daranta
(Repeat with action)
dili ni orasyon oy! hahahahahhah!
this is my very own version of the korean song "papa bear" - from the soap FULL HOUSE (thanks to Lorraine Miscala for  the DVD!).. I love that soap and the soundtrack (at least the ones that were played)! and so one day, i decided to get the lyrics of one of the songs and mao lagi na.. of course, i couldn't understand it so i just wrote what i thought were the words. in tagalog, "kung anong bigkas, syang baybay".. haha! my original lyrics for the second line is, "apakagong, amakagong, e-gi-gong..." but Matty said it sounded like a 3-syllable word and since i trust his hearing more than i trust mine, i changed it.. so there! he couldn't stop laughing after that!

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Cheek Smooches vs Liplocks

Isn't it weird that I find cheek smooches cuter than liplocks? So I told Matty about it and he said that I can't compare them because they're totally different. He said that liplocks are passionate and cheek smooches are cute, they're not on the same level. Ok.. He's right. I just love it when he has all the answers to my questions and he always makes me understand my thoughts. He's so smart - but humble.

He also added that i find it cute because he's the one doing it, if it were any other guy, it would've been the opposite. And I asked why. He said it's because he's cute. Ha-ha! But i know the reason's i love him.. *kilig*

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Return Of The Mighty Matty

so, i was checking my friendster account yesterday.. had a message from someone - it's from Matty and he's got a new friendster account na! gosh! it was a surprise! i mean, he had an account before and he just made it because i was so kulit! he said he will NEVER have time to "maintain" it and true enough, he NEVER logged on again after uploading all of my embarrassing pics, including this:
yup, i know! there's more where it came from, btw.. hehehehe.. he used it to get even coz i always, as in ALWAYS, made fun of him! he's so serious man gud! hehehe.. fun times!
His description of himslef? here goes:
"..I think a lot so that would probably make me a boring person.."
hahahahaha! yup, that's my Matty! hahahahaha! (*winks*)

Monday, June 16, 2008

Is It? Or Is It Not?

is it honestly ok to tell a guy that you love him? i mean, without expecting anything in return and after years of keeping that sacred secret??????? really, is it?

Saturday, June 14, 2008


I like waking up with these little notes on my tv.. isn't he the sweetest? I LOVE YOU MATTY!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Coz With Music..

the feelings just flows.. with the ambiance.. the weather..
i went to the bank yesterday.. in the taxi, the music's, "though you're someone in this world that i always choose to love, from now on, you're only someone that i used to love.. "... and it's raining.. then i cried..
i honestly didn't know why! i mean, im not going through anything emotional these days (except that i miss my family soooo much) and i don't have problems.. nothing, at all, is bothering me! hahahaha! so why did i cry? is it because of my never ending battle with my emotions for the "love-of-my-life"????? but i wasn't thinking about that yesterday, promise! hay ambot! kiver!
and so the driver said, "nakahinumdum ka sa imong kagahapon, mam"? - with matching smile which actually looked funny.. i told him, "dli nong oy.. kusog man gud ang aircon maong nakahilak ko..".. wiping my tears.. then the driver looked at me, so confused, and then said, "seryoso ka mam?"  then i replied, "bitaw nong, makahilak jud ko ug kusog ug aircon.. palihug tag pahinay beh.." i must've looked so serious then coz he believed me! so
gipahinayan niya ang aircon and went on driving but was constantly looking at the mirror after.. heheh.. mao ra.. bow!
makes sense? murag wla! hahahaha!

maybe i just miss matty..

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Boy Bawang

I was grocery shopping last weekend and I texted Matty, "naa kay ipapalit?nag-grocery ko now".. and he replied, "boy bawang langga.."

He is simple that way.

Friday, May 16, 2008

3-day Misery

I am sad today because Matty went home. I will not see him again for 3 days and I hate that he didn't wake me up! HE JUST LEFT. I texted him why and he said that I needed to rest. I'm pissed that I didn't get to hug him.


Thursday, May 8, 2008

Strong Enough To Not Break

It's nice when the person you love is strong enough to accept what's not right in your relationship.

I talked to Matty about how I feel. I told him that I'm used to being around him and that when he's not there and when we can't communicate I feel alone and sad and I fear that this might end in me falling out of love. And he asked what can he do. And I told him to just tell me how he feels about it. And he just hugged me tightly and told me that he loves me so much and that everything's going to be ok. And I was ok. Everything's ok..

Tuesday, May 6, 2008


So ok, it's already May and my life's been a little chaotic.. from my 1-hour late, to my tight budget (some accounts receivable na i think ma-thank you lang.. hay sakit!), and to my realization that im literally stuck in a rut.. and, although my relationship's steady, i felt certain changes in the way that i feel.. here i go again with my feelings.. i call it "the it's-not-you-it's-me baby stage".. hehehe.. which is really disappointing because i thought i've changed.. it's always been like this.. me falling in love like crazy and then just suddenly, it's gone.. like, in a snap.. hayyy.. and all i can do is breathe and tell the truth.. this is so heartbreaking for me also because i don't want to hurt anybody, especially him, who's been so nice to me, so nice that i can't even find a single sign of imperfection.. even his facial pores are small! promise! haay... so all i can say as of this moment is "AMBOT!" gosh!

Tuesday, April 29, 2008


i give up!

the whole weekend, i taught Matty how to play the guitar. Oh, ummm.. his mom gave the guitar to me last Sunday night - it was really a "really!?" moment! haahhaah! and it was sooooo embarrassing! Gosh! i think she likes me! hahahaahha!

so anyway, since he's really been bugging me what my dream guy's like so i told him finally last Friday that it's someone who knows how to play the guitar, you know the rocker type and so, he begged (promise) me to teach him.. and i did.. and it brought me to exhaustion, boredom, and disappointment.. he got few of the simplier chords but most of them are just too hard for him! and the sound is soooo irritating, promise!

he really tried hard, i could see his effort but sadly, it's not just for him.. and so since i couldn't tell it to his face, i texted him.. when he got the text message, he said, "nitext ka?".. and i said "o, ayaw kalain ha.. basaha lang.."

i think he also realized that music's definitely not for him so niundang xa.. hahahaha! i mean, he doesn't need to do that to let me love him more no! hahahaha! i love him more as the more intellectual half of our relationship.. char!


Wednesday, April 23, 2008


So, i've been writing about Matty and about him being all that, and i also talked about him to my sibs and folks.. everyday, i can't help but compare other guys to him and i talk about how lucky i am again.. and then i see guys with eyeglasses and i talk about him some more.. and then there are his messages and kilig2 dayon then i talk about him again.. and then i pray and talk to God about him again..
am i gushing too much about him??
have i lost my cool? have a turned into a mushy-mushy girlfriend! just like that? gosh it's so tragic! hahahaha!


The only thing that matty asked me to do is to text him every morning before i go to work. that's the only thing.. he said that it's not only to let him know that im safe but to make him smile every morning also. apparently, all my "goshes" and "halas" amuse him! he said he can't live a day without hearing me say my favorite word, "gosh!".. hahahahaha!
My gosh! i think that the word says it all. when you're frustrated, you say gosh. when you're surprised, you say gosh. when you're supery dupery happy, you say gosh. and then when you see your friend's boyfriend with someone else, you say gosh again.. gosh, gosh, gosh, gosh.. i think it's more meaningful than "char".. diba? 
oh and btw, my fave word isn't "gosh"..

Saturday, April 19, 2008


Today, Matty and I chased Julie's BB (bicycle bakery - as we both call it) in the busy streets of Panagdait. And it was soooo fun.. My room is at the 3rd floor, and we had to run downstairs! He took pictures of our sweaty faces and I just uploaded it in Multiply! hahaha!


Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Soooo Not Ready!

Jayson and I were roommates in college that's why we're supery dupery close..one of his "flaws-in-desguise" is his "48-years" bathing! as in dugay jd kaayo and i really didn't mind then but last Sunday, i was already sooo hungry. and so i got mad.. i was silent during the whole jeepney ride.. whahahaha! drama2!
*** the situation made me realize that a person really needs to love the person she/he is marrying.. it can't just be like half-love or something.. and it scared me.. i am soooo not ready to get married!***
oh and btw, to make-up for his little fault, he paid for my lunch! hahahahahhaha!


Thursday, April 3, 2008

..... ♥

coz he amazes me! i love my boyfriend.. i just love him..

Tuesday, March 18, 2008


To my Multiply contacts.. coz I've been bombarding them with pictures of me and Matty, well, of Matty.. I even have a whole album of his face there. Obsessed? Nope.. In love? YES!

This is too much. I gotta stop. Ha-ha! I love you Matty (yeah, he reads my blog - secretly!)!!!!

Thursday, March 13, 2008

I'm Talking About Love.. And Some More..

My Gosh!

Ok.. So, as what i've written in my previous entry, MATTHEW is the name of that guy in James Patterson's novel, SUZANNE's DIARY FOR NICOLAS. I read that book last year.
last night, i read my last year's diary and in there, i wrote, "someday, im gonna find my very own matthew.." 
I couldn't remember writing that thought, or even thinking that thought! hahahahah!
is this a sign or something? is my boyfriend Matthew actually THE "matthew" that i was hoping to meet?????
Geee.. it's giving me goosebumps.. just amazing.. 

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Oh, That Name!

Matthew Dallas - the name of the lead actor of KYLE XY (one of my favorite TV shows)
Matthew Fox - the name of the lead actor of LOST (one of my favorite TV shows)
Matthew Rhys  - the name of actor who portrayed the role of Kevin Walker in BROTHERS AND SISTERS (one of my favorite TV shows)
Matthew - the name of the son of one of the residents in Wisteria Lane (DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES - one of my favorite TV shows)
Matthew - the name of Mark Ruffalo's character in 13 GOING ON 30 (one of my favorite movies of all time)
Matthew - the name of the lead character of James Patterson's novel entitled, Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas
Matthews - the brand of the pair of shoes I recently bought at CMG
MATTHEW - the name of the most understanding and most patient individual in this planet! and believe me, if you're dealing with me, you really need a lot of these! my boyfriend! hahahahahah!
Oh, and he's the most intelligent, btw - well, second to my father, that is.. hahahaha!

so, there!

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Our Story

he saw me first at my drabbest.. promise! I remember that day, I was just wearing one of my 90-yr-old PJs and i was ranting about how hot that day was, i was sweating like a pig - that was summer of last year. i remember him being so nice.. days after that i received a text message from  him.. and then probably a month after, we had our first date.. we dated for 3 months and then September 2007, there was "us"..  
the relationship gave me a hard time, especially because then i was at my busiest! OTs, my friends, and the band.. until one day, he told me that i wasn't making time for the relationship so I had no choice, I ended it - i had a blog entry entitiled, "and then he's gone", "perfection", and, the few other blog entries after that, i was talking about him. He was just too "perfect" i couldn't keep up. so there.. but even after that we still saw each other once in a while.. actually, often.. hehehe.. then i realized that not being in a relationship is far more complicated.. and then i said my last goodbye. it was final.. or so i thought..
we never had communication after valentines day. i mean, he didnt't text me so i didn't text him. after we broke up, i wouldn't text him unless he textes me first - it's to do with delikadesa - im a girl! hahahah! so there.. and then last week, he just showed up at my doorstep and told me he needed and he wanted me back.. and at that moment, i realized that i needed and i wanted him back too.. so there.. it happened.. kami napod.. hehehe..